Hi There! I’m Back!

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This morning was my first shoot of 2011, and I confess I was feeling a little bit of trepidation. Not because of the heavy snowfall this morning that threatened to cancel the outdoor shoot — or postpone it too late into the day and then have to rush through — but because I was wondering if my photo-mojo would come back. When I was at my sickest I had zero energy and no desire to shoot anything. It was an awful, awful feeling. But photography is more than a hobby for me, it is a livelihood. I have contracts and commitments and clients. Rationally, it was the illness that took over my brain but less-than-rationally I wondered if this was more than that, if I had to struggle to find my way back to my happy place.

So it was with immense relief that I found myself bonding again with my camera this morning and steering the shoot and thoroughly enjoying the experience of looking through the viewfinder at the numbers and the content in my frame and making all the spur-of-the-moment calculated technical and artistic decisions that go into photographing people (and animals).

Immense, immense relief. Goodbye trepidation, hello mojo! I missed you!